I
am watching in awe as my fib turns into a brilliant breakdown of society.
Almost 100 people have confessed and hangings have been happening left and
right in Salem and surrounding towns. People are not only scared of witches,
but that they themselves will be accused of witchcraft. It is beautiful madness
indeed. Proctor has been brought in and accused. I cannot foresee a viable
future in this town and I have decided to leave. I took Mercy and stole 31
pounds from Reverend Paris’s strongbox and disappeared with her. I feared the
consequences if anyone were to find out about our lie. I had always imagined a
future beside John, but it no longer seemed possible. He hated me with every
ounce of his soul and despised what I had done. It was only through this that I
finally began to see our differences. It was astounding to me that one could
not appreciate the beautiful effect I had yielded with a few simple lies.
However, two question remains. What is left in store in the future? Where can
we go? I had grown up in Salem my whole life. For the majority of my life,
Salem was the only place I knew. We journey on a road never traveled before. We
had taken the life of dozens of innocents with zero regret. However, here we
were, fleeing the very place we sought to influence. As for John, he must
either confess or be hung. Knowing John to be quite stubborn, either outcome would
not be surprising. The thought of death disturbed me. Surely my actions would
go punished either in this life or the next.
Beautiful Madness of Abigail
Sunday, October 19, 2014
Journal 4
Unfortunately,
Elizabeth cannot be hung because she is pregnant. For now, I just need my troop
of girls to work together and formulate our stories.
Unluckily, Mary is
weak. I cannot afford for a single link on my chain to be fragile. In court,
Mary tried to maintain that it was all an act. However, under all the pressure,
she claims that she was mistaken and that she indeed saw spirits. When Danforth
shifts the pressure on me, I find myself shivering. In my quick-witted genius,
I hint the other girls to follow suit and blamed Mary for bewitching us. The
following events were quite interesting. John Proctor, with his delightful
jawline, stepped forward and began publicizing our affair! He even went as far
as to call me a whore. This is quite the insult to throw at a young woman such
as I. The clever bastard saw right through my plan to rid of Elizabeth so I
could take her place. Elizabeth’s story was entirely different however. She
claimed to have fired me on the basis that she suspected John to have fancied
me. I was so tempted to tell her he did well more than fancy me. Hale then
enters and claims to that I have always struck him false. How dare these
plebeians question my stories? Starting to panic as I felt the court slowly
turning against my favor, I simply let out a forced scream. The other girls
quickly followed suit. We pretended to be terrified, pointing to Mary as we
screamed. We looked up at the “bird” that was tormenting us. Surely everyone
was convinced Mary was bewitching us. Proctor approached Mary, as he was dazed
and confused. To my astonishment and amusement, Mary began to claim Proctor as
the devil’s man. She looked genuinely afraid and began to shout her praise for
God. Things were not exactly going to plan, but suspicion had been shifted away
from me. Proctor is visibly furious, but there is nothing I can do.
Journal 3
As
a young Puritan girl, power is something I had not processed before. It was
strange to realize that whomever my girls and I named would be arrested for
“bewitching” us. There were now 14 people in jail. Growing up on Christian
values, I would have expected me to feel guilt. If any of these people do not
confess, they would be hanged. Oddly enough, I seemed not to care. As numbers
grew and grew, the numbers of those accused rose to 39 people. I personally accused
Elizabeth Proctor, but Mary Warren was physically uncomfortable with the
allegation. Within minutes, she pleaded that Elizabeth was not a witch and
vouched for her good person. Nevertheless, I had a plan and would not be stopped.
I gave a doll to Mary with a needle in it and told Mary to gift it to Elizabeth. I had the perfect plan in place.
Around suppertime, I stuck a needle
into my abdomen and gave a fit. I cried that Elizabeth was bewitching me. Since
Cheever went to look further into the Proctors, I was positive he would find
the doll. There was no way this obvious “voodoo” would not force Elizabeth out
of John’s life. I hear that Elizabeth was lead away and John was left furious.
Thinking of this whole plan leaves nothing but a giant smirk on my face. I was exceptionally
proud of myself for concocting my brilliant plan. Elizabeth is going away and
John, my love, will be all mine. I was shuttering with excitement. Is what I’m
doing unmoral? Yes, but never had I processed such great power. How great it
was to wield the fates of others in my hand; the ability to mold the world and
bend people to the way I desired was truly incredible.
Journal 2
Without
a doubt, trouble is afoot. Betty is in a horrible state, lifeless and
unresponsive. Reverend Parris stays deep in concentration; never before have I
seen him so concentrated in prayer as he kneels besides his daughter. My chest
pains from the anxiety stemming from this; the reverend grows more and more
suspicious. Word quickly spreads that Betty is a victim of witchcraft. My head
aches, pounding harder by the minute; I mentally prepare myself for the
questions that might lie ahead. As time passed, something terrifyingly
unexpected happened. Reverend Parris outs me! He describes seeing me dancing
with several other girls along with his slave, Tituba, in the woods at night.
How dare he throw accusations at his very own niece? Stubborn as I am, I denied
all accusations and denied any association. Soon after, Thomas Putnam enters
along with his wife. Mrs. Putnam, who has always been quite a yahoo, began to
spout some preposterous stories. She claimed her own daughter had been
inflicted with the same symptoms as Betty. This however was not what I found to
be outlandish. Her second claim was that she saw Betty flying over a barn. I
understand that any controversy will aid the cause to throw out Reverend Parris.
To uncover these mysterious occurrences, Reverend Hale is called forth to come
to the town. At this point, I am terrified. Any lie necessary to save me will
be exploited. I refuse to allow myself to go down as a witch, no matter who the
accuser. I inform Mercy of the current situation as Marry Warren is almost
handicapped by concern. I was quite ambivalent when Betty woke up. Though a
little glad she was all right, she quickly protested that I had not told
everyone that I had drank the blood. Without a second thought, I smashed her in
the face. When being questioned by Reverend Hale, I continue to deny all
association to witchcraft, maintaining that there was no witchery involved with
the dancing. Tituba claims that there are many witches among us. We then begin
the greatest excuse of all. We claim we are being tormented and begin to name
“witches” in the town. Betty, Tituba, and I collectively named Goody Osborn,
Sarah Good, Bridget Bishop, George Jacobs, Goody Howe, Martha Bellows, Goody
Sibber, Alice Barrow, Goody Hawkins, Goody Bibber, and Goody Booth.
Journal 1
The days in Salem seem to grow longer and longer. This painfully mundane town is taking its toll. Boredom acts like a disease, infecting all the young ones of the town. Dullness has made me extremely easily tempted. One of the greatest indulgences the girls and I humor is listening and being thoroughly entertained by Tituba’s magical acts and tails that she describes in both an accented English and a foreign tongue. Without a doubt, she is the most interesting slave I have ever encountered. Mercy, Betty, Marry, and I often watch in awe and shock as Tituba tells her stories and shows us voodoo upon my request. The greatest thrill of all is knowing such witchcraft is very dangerous and can even result in a hanging. The excitement of breaking the stringent rules of our Puritan society is one that brings much joy to me. On one occasion, Tituba guided us to the woods and conducted a strange ceremony. I voluntarily drank blood as I was promised great benefits. We danced and danced with smiles on our faces. Our laughter could not be contained! Our hair was down and our shoes were off. It was a wondrous feeling to be free from the social pressures of Puritan society. Nonetheless, we had to be vigilant because being caught dancing in the woods would surely result in severe punishment. Admittedly, this voodoo is not my only flaw. I miss John Proctor more and more everyday. Though our affair was short, he has found a special place in my heart. It pains me to see him so blatantly unhappy with his current wife. Unquestionably, he would be happier with me, but such a relationship would surely be deemed unacceptable with his wife, Elizabeth, in the way. Being the niece of Reverend Parris, I am no stranger to social pressures and exorbitant expectations. Much of my time was devoted to pretending to be a perfect Puritan girl, being free from temptation, and putting the church above all else. I was interesting to see how some blindly followed the church while some cared little for it. Of course, being the niece of the new reverend, I had little choice in whether or not I was going to church. As a growing discontent with the current church matters seems to pile up against Parris, I only hope no one learns of the secret between Tituba, the girls, and I.
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